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Friday, February 18, 2011

All Good Things Come To An End

I've been in a relationship for a year and ten months now. It's my first relationship and as much as I want it to be perfect, there's a saying that goes like my blog post title and we can't deny the fact that it can be true. Don't get me wrong, I'm breaking up with him not because we cheated or because the absence of love. No. I'm going to break up because I am disappointed of the relationship and him as my boyfriend.

The ride was a little rocky lately. We would always quarrel and get into petty fights. And that's because he couldn't understand the word "special". All I wanted was for him to do something that would sweep me off my feet; something nobody has done for me yet; something that even after fifty years, I'd still remember.

I was actually waiting. Day by day I keep on telling myself that he'll come to understand the word and run an extra mile for me.

Then Valentine's Day.

Since he is my first boyfriend, as a girl, there's always something special going on heart's day. No matter how much a girl says it's corny and cheesy, but she still gets all mushy and still thinks it's sweet.

That's how I am. I expect something from my boyfriend. My friends keep on telling me that my heart's day is something to look forward to because I have a boyfriend and he's ought to do something special for me.

Then I keep quiet.

I don't know what my boyfriend has planned. We were together last Sunday and he told me he doesn't have money to splurge on the special day. I said, 'okay, no problem'. I do understand that he's having a hard time trying to save some bucks as he is finished with his college studies and still waiting for his board exam results. But still.. it's Valentine's. You can get something special in a cheap price.. or better, DO SOMETHING WITHOUT SPENDING A LOT OF CASH.

He sent me a message as to where I would want to eat in the heart's day eve. I read through my cellphone and my mouth dropped. Why is he asking me this? It's ought to be a surprise. Then he asked me if the restaurant I suggested months ago is expensive or not. My eyes widened. Why is he telling me that he doesn't have enough money for our dinner?

You don't ask your date if you can afford the restaurant or not. You don't tell your girlfriend what your plans for tonight because it's supposed to be a surprise - even just for that day. You don't make your girl think like if you're gonna be on a date and if it's higher than your budget, she pays the half. NO! You don't do that.

But he did. My boyfriend did.

I told him I'm not going on a date in the evening since my class ends at 8:30pm and I can't go home past 10. So we have to reschedule. He told me he'll wait outside school as he has a rose for me. YOU DON'T SAY YOU HAVE A ROSE!

My friends were teasing me about him having a surprise. I told them that he's waiting outside and I'm not gonna see him. They insisted that he has a surprise for me. I told them, "No, he has a rose for me." And the guy friend said, "He told you that? It's supposed to be a surprise!". I know right.

But then I still went out and saw him. He was holding a rose and he asked, "Do you wanna go out?" YES I WANNA GO OUT YOU IDIOT! "No, I need to go home." And I took off without even bringing the rose with me.

It's disappointing to know that I've been receiving roses since high school up to now. With or without a boyfriend, my Valentine's is all but the same. Maybe if he had something different, I would've taken it and got on a date with him. Or maybe if he had given the rose in a different unique and oddly way, I would've taken it and my Valentine's would have been great. But no, he sticked to what he knew best - giving a rose without any twist. And I'm the bad guy for not appreciating it.

He never texted me since then. And I sent him a message awhile ago that we need to talk tomorrow. He asked, "Why, what for?" I replied, "Last talk. I'll drop by at 2pm." And he said, "Okay then. Bring my mp3, the charger, battery and usb cord."

That's not the only thing I'll bring. I'll bring everything you've given me and I'll give it all back to you.

He has the right to get mad because I didn't take the roses he gave me and never appreciated the effort of buying one. I wouldn't! That's his role as a boyfriend. I never asked anything from him. I never asked for his time. I don't even mind him not being with me in school everyday. I don't ask him to bring me to places. I don't even ask him to pay. I just asked him to make that one special day indeed special. Just once.

And he gets mad because I didn't thank him for his effort of buying a rose! A rose! Buying a rose! It is a big effort. He exerted a lot of effort in buying a rose! I thought it's the role of a boyfriend. But he thinks he ran an extra mile for buying a rose. How disappointing.

As much as I want this relationship to work out, I'm actually tired. Well,

Labels: boyfriend, love

Friday, October 30, 2009

Finally!

Finally, I'm enrolled. And I have the best schedule ever, I mean, compared to my classmates who got 7:30 am classes. I only have 7:30 am classes on Wednesdays and Fridays since I couldn't seem to find any schedule that wouldn't have any conflicts with my other subjects. So I had to stick with Gensci2 under BSCS2A. Too bad though, BSCS2A has different RS4 schedules. We didn't have RS4 reserved for our section. So we really had to choose from reserved RS4 of the other courses. I got mine under ABPO (what the hell?) and thank God my friend Stephanie chose the same schedule for her RS4 which is MWF 9:30-10:30. While I moved my Filipino at TTH (still) from 7:30am to 9:30 am. Better, right?

Finally, grades are released online! There are still two subjects with NO GRADE posted but the remaining 7 subjects have posted my grades and I was more than happy with the result. I was really expecting to fail at my major JAVA Programming Language (CSM_106). I certainly am aware that I didn't do well at that subject. I tried my best to understand it and do better at exams, but I always felt like I wasn't doing enough. I was always expecting that my grades in prelim and midterm was 75 or something. I am really really glad I got an 80. :) I know some would say it's still low, but with Sir Tan, 80 is really really okay for us. God gave me more than enough. Guess, I have to do better this second sem and land a place at the dean's list.

Finally, I have come to a delimma whether to tell mom or not about me having a boyfriend for almost 8 months now. I made a promise to God, to my cousins and to myself that if ever I pass this subject, I'll have the courage to tell mom about us. I have good grades (no, better), I'm being responsible and all and... just good things! I need to write down the pros and cons. Let me hear yours!

Finally, my site (http://www.koryanangpinay.com) was fixed. Thank you, Lois! I love you to death. I'm kind of enjoying here at koreanadoll.blogspot.com but I guess I need to go back to my KP since sweet Lois is paying for it and I need to give something back to her. SERIOUSLY! I'm more than appreciative of what she's doing for me. But I guess koryanangpinay.com will only post showbiz stuffs, random articles and etc except for my day to day rantings. I'm keeping my rantings here at koreanadoll.blogspot.com. So please, smother me with comments.

Labels: boyfriend, comsci, enrollment, grades, java, koryanangpinay.com, KP

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